Dear community,
Lately I've been feeling restless and wondering what to do with my life. It happens to me from time to time specially in autumn, which feels like a second spring- when I have the feeling I still can make a change and find the way to live a truly fulfilling life.
My life is not that bad, but Im aware that I make all my decisions out of fear, so Ive chosen a very conservative life that doesnt really fits me. I have a boring job, have a boring life in the city while I miss the mountains and the way the seasons change the landscapes. Im trying to get pregnant without succeeding and have various physical problems that, to me, are probably all related to the way Im living my life. A year ago I started studying something I hate in order to become a civil servant and have a permanent job. I thought that, if I could make it, that safety net would make me feel less fearful and I would be able to start pursuing what I really want (not sure what that is, either).
Sometimes I feel I should quit everything and move abroad. Its not that by moving youre leaving your fears behind, but that fact that you have to start from scratch in a totally different environment makes it easier to reinvent yourself. I guess.
I just cant stand anymore my frustration; its not enough anymore to feel secure if I cant see the value of the life Im living. The problem is I have too many ideas, from moving abroad, to look for a house in the countryside with a friend of mine and sell things in flea markets, to keep on studying to become a civil servant or whatever.
Before casting the coins for every one of my specific ideas, one by one, I decided to ask a more generic question, since the answer could have been something along the lines of keep on doing what youre doing because its not time to change anything, and that would save me some time . So I asked: What direction should I give my life?
And received: hexagram 48.2.3.4 to 45
The well may be referring to my potential, my resources. To the fact that my skills are always there, but they have become, somehow, unavailable, blocked, unreachable.
You can transplant your center and change everything about your life, except for the source you draw on to sustain it all. You cannot own this source, nor carry it with you; whenever you move, you will need first of all to dig a new well to reach it. That bit seems to refer to the options of moving abroad, as saying that it doesnt really matter whether I move or not, since my fears will always be there. I also think its inviting me to so some introspection, since the source of my distress is linked to the lost connection Ive got with my own intuition (thats why I feel so lost and dont even know what I want).
48.2 Lise says: Even the best well can only stay clear if one looks after it. Even a rich mind or a splendid thought has to be developed and kept alive. But if you cannot drink the water, and there is no good jug, then enjoy the bass you can get. Make use of what a situation offers you, don't demand what is not there. It certainly means I am neglecting my talents, but somehow its encouraging me to settle for what Ive got.
48.3 If something does not work, then look at it from all sides, think about it So that could be related to the need of doing some introspection.
48.4 Never resign yourself to a low spirit, a depression, lack of inspiration, unhappiness. Do something about it! This line sure calls for action.
All in all, what I read is: Is not time to make a big change for the sake of it, but to pause, think, get inspired and put my life on track by reconnecting with my essence and my passions.
The resulting hexagram, 45 talks about gathering with people with similar interests. To be more sociable, since sometimes focusing so much in oneself is not the answer. But I dont really know.
Does anyone have any further ideas for my reading? Any input would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!
Lately I've been feeling restless and wondering what to do with my life. It happens to me from time to time specially in autumn, which feels like a second spring- when I have the feeling I still can make a change and find the way to live a truly fulfilling life.
My life is not that bad, but Im aware that I make all my decisions out of fear, so Ive chosen a very conservative life that doesnt really fits me. I have a boring job, have a boring life in the city while I miss the mountains and the way the seasons change the landscapes. Im trying to get pregnant without succeeding and have various physical problems that, to me, are probably all related to the way Im living my life. A year ago I started studying something I hate in order to become a civil servant and have a permanent job. I thought that, if I could make it, that safety net would make me feel less fearful and I would be able to start pursuing what I really want (not sure what that is, either).
Sometimes I feel I should quit everything and move abroad. Its not that by moving youre leaving your fears behind, but that fact that you have to start from scratch in a totally different environment makes it easier to reinvent yourself. I guess.
I just cant stand anymore my frustration; its not enough anymore to feel secure if I cant see the value of the life Im living. The problem is I have too many ideas, from moving abroad, to look for a house in the countryside with a friend of mine and sell things in flea markets, to keep on studying to become a civil servant or whatever.
Before casting the coins for every one of my specific ideas, one by one, I decided to ask a more generic question, since the answer could have been something along the lines of keep on doing what youre doing because its not time to change anything, and that would save me some time . So I asked: What direction should I give my life?
And received: hexagram 48.2.3.4 to 45
The well may be referring to my potential, my resources. To the fact that my skills are always there, but they have become, somehow, unavailable, blocked, unreachable.
You can transplant your center and change everything about your life, except for the source you draw on to sustain it all. You cannot own this source, nor carry it with you; whenever you move, you will need first of all to dig a new well to reach it. That bit seems to refer to the options of moving abroad, as saying that it doesnt really matter whether I move or not, since my fears will always be there. I also think its inviting me to so some introspection, since the source of my distress is linked to the lost connection Ive got with my own intuition (thats why I feel so lost and dont even know what I want).
48.2 Lise says: Even the best well can only stay clear if one looks after it. Even a rich mind or a splendid thought has to be developed and kept alive. But if you cannot drink the water, and there is no good jug, then enjoy the bass you can get. Make use of what a situation offers you, don't demand what is not there. It certainly means I am neglecting my talents, but somehow its encouraging me to settle for what Ive got.
48.3 If something does not work, then look at it from all sides, think about it So that could be related to the need of doing some introspection.
48.4 Never resign yourself to a low spirit, a depression, lack of inspiration, unhappiness. Do something about it! This line sure calls for action.
All in all, what I read is: Is not time to make a big change for the sake of it, but to pause, think, get inspired and put my life on track by reconnecting with my essence and my passions.
The resulting hexagram, 45 talks about gathering with people with similar interests. To be more sociable, since sometimes focusing so much in oneself is not the answer. But I dont really know.
Does anyone have any further ideas for my reading? Any input would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!