I've always been a healthy, active, lively person. But about a year ago an unusual and previously unknown oddity of my physiology manifested itself and resulted in an accident that nearly killed me.
My doctor, a specialist in this particular area of physiology, says he has treated about 2,000 people this happened to. I am one of 2 who survived. And I'm really doing very well physically--back to yoga, exercising vigorously, working full time, caring for my household members and property.
But psychologically I am a mess. My spirit is crushed. Everything triggers my PTSD. I cannot tolerate the presence of other people for more than an hour or two at a time. To the degree that I understand what is happening to me now, I know that it is not something that professional help can address.
So I've turned back to the Yi, my old friend, using it now differently than I once did. I consulted it once, a few days ago, asking the best question I could craft, and plan to mull over the response for perhaps a week before asking another.
My question was this: I am all better now. Why does this still feel like such a big deal? Having experienced what I suppose is a miracle, why am I falling apart? The answer was 18 unchanging, which I take to mean that my current mental state is continuous with what came before and that any mental recovery I make must take into account not only recent trauma but also my past--the sins of the fathers, if you will.
I would love to hear any thoughts you care to share. This community is one I have benefited from tremendously in the past. Thank you all for still being here.
My doctor, a specialist in this particular area of physiology, says he has treated about 2,000 people this happened to. I am one of 2 who survived. And I'm really doing very well physically--back to yoga, exercising vigorously, working full time, caring for my household members and property.
But psychologically I am a mess. My spirit is crushed. Everything triggers my PTSD. I cannot tolerate the presence of other people for more than an hour or two at a time. To the degree that I understand what is happening to me now, I know that it is not something that professional help can address.
So I've turned back to the Yi, my old friend, using it now differently than I once did. I consulted it once, a few days ago, asking the best question I could craft, and plan to mull over the response for perhaps a week before asking another.
My question was this: I am all better now. Why does this still feel like such a big deal? Having experienced what I suppose is a miracle, why am I falling apart? The answer was 18 unchanging, which I take to mean that my current mental state is continuous with what came before and that any mental recovery I make must take into account not only recent trauma but also my past--the sins of the fathers, if you will.
I would love to hear any thoughts you care to share. This community is one I have benefited from tremendously in the past. Thank you all for still being here.