I asked the I Ching, "What if I leave my job?" and got 52.3>23.
Background:
I've recently grown very resentful towards some of my teammates/superiors. A few things triggered this: One of them insinuated I wasn't as competent as I thought I was; another was very harsh to me when something went wrong; another added to my workload and pretended like it was nothing.
I was so upset that I went frantically job hunting. I was successful in my job hunt, and am now in the final stages of two hiring processes. One company just needs to go through the final step of checking my references; the other said they will make me an offer by the end of next week.
In the meantime, I vaguely expressed my dissatisfaction with the company's HR person through tears and inarticulate, meaningless ramblings. The HR person suggested that I had leadership qualities and that perhaps it was time for me to move from my menial job to dedicate myself full-time to a specific project I'm involved with.
The HR person also had the CEO call me to ask me if I was okay, which was embarrassing. The CEO reiterated that he thought the project I was involved with was important and he was glad I was leading it.
The HR person's suggestion that I should eventually move away from my menial job caught me by surprise. So did hearing the CEO say I was leading what he considered to be one of the company's top projects. It made me scared to leave the company, even though I am not as optimistic as they are about this particular project.
The company is fun and innovative, and the leadership tries to do good by their employees (although my salary is low). What they sell is also very interesting. My work is frustrating, though, because I am at the lowest end of the hierarchy and all of the boring tasks seem to be assigned to me.
The two jobs I am applying for are not dream jobs. They are regular jobs at companies that are infinitely less "cool" than this one. But the work I'd be doing is different.
Question:
"What if I leave [company]?"
52.3 to 23.
23 talks about stripping away, which is what I seem to be doing.
The judgment of 52 "Keeping Still. Keeping his back still so that he no longer feels his body. He goes into his courtyard and does not see his people. No blame." also seems to relate to leaving, or perhaps having 'checked out' spiritually in spite of being somewhere in person.
Anyway, 52 talks about stillness, but also (I think) moving when the time is right. This would seem to indicate that leaving my job makes sense.
Line 3 ruins it though with strange words I don't understand:
"Keeping his hips still. Making his sacrum stiff. Dangerous. The heart suffocates."
I read something somewhere about this having to do with suppressed anger I definitely have frustrations and complaints that I wasn't able to articulate to my teammates and superiors. I get upset a lot, in life and at work, and I recently realized it might have something to do with an inability to set proper boundaries.
At the end of the day, I'm not sure the I Ching is telling me leaving will be a good thing. I asked for a prediction, and the answer in line 3 seems to be that leaving is risky and that I will remain frustrated.
I'd love to hear your perspectives on this reading if you have the time and interest in sharing them with me. Thank you so much.
Background:
I've recently grown very resentful towards some of my teammates/superiors. A few things triggered this: One of them insinuated I wasn't as competent as I thought I was; another was very harsh to me when something went wrong; another added to my workload and pretended like it was nothing.
I was so upset that I went frantically job hunting. I was successful in my job hunt, and am now in the final stages of two hiring processes. One company just needs to go through the final step of checking my references; the other said they will make me an offer by the end of next week.
In the meantime, I vaguely expressed my dissatisfaction with the company's HR person through tears and inarticulate, meaningless ramblings. The HR person suggested that I had leadership qualities and that perhaps it was time for me to move from my menial job to dedicate myself full-time to a specific project I'm involved with.
The HR person also had the CEO call me to ask me if I was okay, which was embarrassing. The CEO reiterated that he thought the project I was involved with was important and he was glad I was leading it.
The HR person's suggestion that I should eventually move away from my menial job caught me by surprise. So did hearing the CEO say I was leading what he considered to be one of the company's top projects. It made me scared to leave the company, even though I am not as optimistic as they are about this particular project.
The company is fun and innovative, and the leadership tries to do good by their employees (although my salary is low). What they sell is also very interesting. My work is frustrating, though, because I am at the lowest end of the hierarchy and all of the boring tasks seem to be assigned to me.
The two jobs I am applying for are not dream jobs. They are regular jobs at companies that are infinitely less "cool" than this one. But the work I'd be doing is different.
Question:
"What if I leave [company]?"
52.3 to 23.
23 talks about stripping away, which is what I seem to be doing.
The judgment of 52 "Keeping Still. Keeping his back still so that he no longer feels his body. He goes into his courtyard and does not see his people. No blame." also seems to relate to leaving, or perhaps having 'checked out' spiritually in spite of being somewhere in person.
Anyway, 52 talks about stillness, but also (I think) moving when the time is right. This would seem to indicate that leaving my job makes sense.
Line 3 ruins it though with strange words I don't understand:
"Keeping his hips still. Making his sacrum stiff. Dangerous. The heart suffocates."
I read something somewhere about this having to do with suppressed anger I definitely have frustrations and complaints that I wasn't able to articulate to my teammates and superiors. I get upset a lot, in life and at work, and I recently realized it might have something to do with an inability to set proper boundaries.
At the end of the day, I'm not sure the I Ching is telling me leaving will be a good thing. I asked for a prediction, and the answer in line 3 seems to be that leaving is risky and that I will remain frustrated.
I'd love to hear your perspectives on this reading if you have the time and interest in sharing them with me. Thank you so much.