I've been in love with a man for the last year and a half, even though we're not together. We've known each other most of our lives, we went to the same elementary school and were friends in high school. We had a short fling in our late twenties(15 years ago) and then again last summer. The only problem is, I was married last summer. That marriage is dissolving in an amicable way, but we are still married. So I've been obsessing about the other man, E, for over a year. The reason I haven't been able to let him go is it feels like my higher self doesn't want me to. For instance, early on, I was tired of thinking about him because I didn't think it could go anywhere so I cried out to the universe, Give me a sign! I've never asked so emphatically before for a sign but this time I asked very clearly and requested to have it within 24 hours. My agreement was, if I didn't receive a sign, I would drop it completely and move on. E has a very unusual name, and the next day I got a wrong number from a different state asking for someone with his same name. I took that as the sign. There have been many other similar things like this, plus I've known him and loved him as a friend for most of my life. I've been very clear that I don't want to pursue this out of egoistic desire. I only want what's in harmony with universal forces and both of our higher selves. I know how to manifest things into my life, I've done it before, plus I'm extremely patient. So I've been working on manifesting this relationship ONLY because all signs point to it being in accord with the greater good, otherwise I wouldn't do it. I'm checking with Yi often to see how I'm doing and if I'm still in alignment about it. So I asked, how far along am I on the E-train and got 41.1.2.5.6>8, then two days later, what's the potential for us and got 42.1.6>8. I'm checking in with you guys because I know I have rose colored glasses on about this. Also, I'm not anticipating anything happening with him for a few more years. There are still too many things to work out in my current situation. I'm committed to doing The Work, and I see this as part of my journey into being a deliberate creator. I know I sound weird to some people, but everything I do is based in love and appreciation and wanting the best for all involved. Thanks for reading and any insights would be appreciated.
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