I had a brief thing with someone this summer, (though at the time, because of their actions and words I had no reason to think it would brief) and then they started pulling away from me, and then they disappeared completely. I was really hurt and surprised and humiliated, but I decided that I should just act in a way to fit the situation, his signals indicated I should not contact him so I didn't. For about two weeks. Then I decided that hey I exist too, he is being rude, and it was okay for me to ask why. Their response was weak, but the conversation was very short and upsetting but I got the information I needed, and I decided it was important to never speak to them ever again. I let another two weeks go by and I felt like it was so wrong (for my own process of moving on... I know, ugh, I knooowww) to leave things at that last, really brief and upsetting conversation. So I wrote them a short note. It wasn't really an invitation to dialogue so much as me just trying to release the tension, it was brief but I put a lot of thought and care into it. Was careful to just be straightforward and not muddy it up with thoughts and feelings that are better left private. I didn't expect a response (he's lame) but of course was upset when I didn't get one... until a week later (yesterday). I got a really casual reply that I found really insulting. He was glad about my note, sorry he didn't reply but it's because he's bad at doing stuff (lol) and hopes I'm doing well :) (yes, he included a smiley face)
ugh.
Anyway I wasn't going to reply because I know any response I got would just be so weak and would draw this thing out in a way that would hurt me. But then I had to go and ask about it. ugh!
5.5.6 to 26
Hexagram 5, line 5, and 26 all made me think it was okay to just hold back and relax (but that I will have to maybe do something at some point?). But then that line 6!!!
So this is what I am confused about: Does 26 and 5.5 refer to the waiting I already did, and line 6 is the message I received, the uninvited guest that I should treat with kindness now? Or is 26 and 5.5 refer to what I should do now, and line 6 is a reassurance that an unexpected solution will come to me?
So I asked "what if I wait" and got 18.3.5 changing to 59. Which I think means I have been given an opportunity to fix something. But to be honest I have no. idea. what to say. The only thing I can think to say actually is "hey this reply is super lame are you kidding me".
sigh!
ugh.
Anyway I wasn't going to reply because I know any response I got would just be so weak and would draw this thing out in a way that would hurt me. But then I had to go and ask about it. ugh!
5.5.6 to 26
Hexagram 5, line 5, and 26 all made me think it was okay to just hold back and relax (but that I will have to maybe do something at some point?). But then that line 6!!!
So this is what I am confused about: Does 26 and 5.5 refer to the waiting I already did, and line 6 is the message I received, the uninvited guest that I should treat with kindness now? Or is 26 and 5.5 refer to what I should do now, and line 6 is a reassurance that an unexpected solution will come to me?
So I asked "what if I wait" and got 18.3.5 changing to 59. Which I think means I have been given an opportunity to fix something. But to be honest I have no. idea. what to say. The only thing I can think to say actually is "hey this reply is super lame are you kidding me".
sigh!