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So here I am. I am going through a very bad time. I am depressed, feeling lonely, hopeless, helpless ,closed into my house as I have no mood for anything. Perhaps the reason is that I have lose my hopes for a better life, for a reconciliation with my ex who I still love so much but it seems impossible to be together and I can't forget him. I can't find a reason to live. Anyways.

My question was:
After so much suffering, will something pleasant happen in my life?
hexagram 26, changing lines 4 and 6 to hexagram 34.

I have no energy even to interpret. Please any thoughts?