Dear friends, I had a strange day today. I'm currently on holiday at the seaside, relaxed and with nothing to do...Today I had lunch with my mum, just the two of us, and we started chatting about many things. At a certain point she started talking about my husband and she spoke out her mind.. basically she said I should break up with him for many different reasons, also because after 17 years' marriage it's just not possible to make it better or to resolve some problems which can't be resolved. Moreover I found out today that my "would be lover" (someone who's been in love with me for ages and that has been waiting for me to change my mind and start a new life with him) is seeing a woman (he started a relationship with her a few days ago). These two facts have upset me quite a lot. The fact that my mum was so straight with me with no playing around, the fact that my marriage is finishing and I'm 48 (critical age for a woman), the fact that I'm not able to make up my mind, the fact that a man I could have started a relationship with has found someone else... all these things have made me aware of the fact that I can't find a way out. I'm not happy with myself, I feel like I'm lost and I feel down in the mouth. Moreover I got involved in an online affair which has killed me, but that's another kettle of fish... To cut it short I asked IC what I should expect now, out of these "revelations"... what am I supposed to expect? I got 50.1>14... any ideas? Should I make a move somehow? Do you think these hex are good ones to get concerning my obscure future? Thank you one more time for your help. All the best E☺
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