38.1.4.6

Dear all,
I have this person in my life that I can't figure it out!

I had an on off relationship with this person for a while (3 years) in the past. I took a decision while a go to go my on way, because I was in love with him...but he never took a position toward me. I was totally in love and it was really hard for me to let him go. He is a really problematic person!
But my life was actually pretty good without him, many good things come to may way, and I' m happy with where I'm.
Some time has past....and I got in touch with him again!!!
I felt the world collapse on me!!!
I felt I'm still deeply connected with this person..I felt like nothing has changed... but I also felt terrible with my self!

What's really is hard for me to understand is the kind of connection there is between us and why it never happen to become something real...like "regular" relationship.
I asked: what's between us? ( meaning what are the feeling between us)

answer is 38.1.4.6

My idea is like there is a misunderstanding but I really don't now how to handle it!

What is your idea about it?

thanks for your help!!!