Single again. Why do I keep pushing people away? Hex 58 uc

I am going through a rough patch. Two months ago I became single again. Now that the aftershock of breaking up is fading away I find myself lost. I had to move back in with my dad who lives a quiet hermit life. Part of me embraces the solitude while another part of me wants to reach out and connect, talk, cry, laugh... have fun with other people. I have gotten opportunities to do just that. I commit for dinner, a party or a concert and then when the day arrives I feel conflicted, even anxious about the whole plan and cancel the whole thing. Not every time, but more then I'd like. I disappointed a couple of friends already. To be honest this is not something new for me, I feel extremely selfconscious about it. It gets worse when I feel insecure or frightened, like right now.

I asked Yi: Single again. Why do I keep pushing people away? Hex 58 uc
This hex seems to embody the very essence of everything I feel I am lacking right now. A pat on the shoulder from uncle Yi, perhaps :hug:

What do you guys think?