There was a huge thunderstorm this morning and I was driving on a one way street on my way to a yoga class. Traffic stopped because two giant tree limbs were blocking the road. There was literally no way for any of us to get off of that road except for those limbs to be moved. It took me about two minutes to figure this out and then I saw a man get out and start trying to move them, so I got out and helped. It was really hard and it was lightning and pouring down rain. I kept gesturing, in vain, for other people to get out and help. I was mad that no one would help us! Finally two other women came out, but there were several cars where no one got out. We eventually managed to move them, I'm soaking wet, and all the cars were able to go through. I couldn't let this go, it was pissing me off that no one else helped and I guess I was feeling pretty cocky about it too. Like, Im the kind of person that does this stuff but no one else is. I got home and posted a long rant on facebook about it. Right after my post I asked the I Ching what this whole thing was trying to teach me and got 42.5.6>24. Line 5 I understood because it was all about helping other people and being unselfish. Here's from James DeKorne's site: Without asking for recognition and gratitude, the man in a high position benefits those below. He acts from the inner necessity of acknowledged goodness. But then there was the sixth line which basically says the opposite. I was confused. Hadn't I worked unselfishly to help other people? Now I live in a fairly small town and even smaller community, so one of my friends saw my post and said that she had seen several other posts that morning from people saying how grateful they were that we had moved those limbs because they were either elderly or had babies in the car. I felt like such a jerk! I only saw this fb post from my friend after I'd asked the I Ching and, boy, did that line six make sense now! Another reading from Mothering Change on line six said, You receive a great sign but will not heed it. I then, after seeing my friend's post, asked what is the great sign that I didn't heed and got 36 uc. I'm taking this to mean that it's my part, right now, to work for the benefit of humanity without seeking any recognition, i.e., staying quiet about what a great unselfish person I am, ha ha. Apparently I'm not as unselfish as I think I am if I demand so much respect and recognition for helping other people. This wouldn't be hitting me so hard if I weren't really trying to do this Work and really wanting to be a good, unselfish person. Looks like I haven't quite hit the mark. I deleted my fb post and feel terrible now. I'm going to meditate on this today, and try to understand what it really means to work unselfishly for humanity without needing recognition. Any thoughts, comments? Thank you.
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