Hello everyone.I have asked " Let me know if I will be lost or be victorious. Do I have to stay here(Europe)? I am afraid to go back(USA).Not like this, not without any strength left in me. Will I manage? My fear is taking over, my lack of clarity is winning and I am always alone. Let me know will I succeed? To be happy, to be complete. Before everything changes. Let me know will I succeed? I want to perform, to be happy to travel"I am a music artist, feeling lost for most of my life. I have travelled far and away from were I was born and raised, struggled through many years, found myself were I wanted, lucky in many aspects but always lost in terms of what is needed to be done in order to achieve my dream of travelling the world and sharing my music and my words with everyone out there, sharing my point of view and my faith and willingness towards change. Maybe I am/was too ambitious, and I have been a fool, a drunk, less than I thought that I would be. I hurt loved ones and I got hurt myself. Being insensitive at times and egocentric. I know of my flaws, I am aware. I returned to my home country for a short period of time, in order to create something that could not be created lesewhere, to fgather strength and the assets that would take some of the obstacles away.I thought this would be the beginning of change, a turning point, that I would return in both places victorious, that i would be able to be who I always dreamt.Instead I feel depleted and ready to quit. I don't want to. I want to be happy, I want to be successful and I want to be real.I got this reply, and I am now wondering who is the guide, who do I follow?I no longer wish to lead, as I can't, being like I am.Thank you for reading,SF
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