What do I need to know about my lovelife? Hex 2.1.4 to 51

Hi folks

I have been alone for too long. I have no shortage of attention from men but my past bad experiences keeps me paralized. I have major trust issues and I just can 't bring myself to start dating again.

This week was a personal anticlimax. An old friend expressed his feelings for me, but the feeling isn't mutual. Still hurts, because now the terms of out friendship have changed.

Then I met this really sweet guy online, but I just couldn' t bring myself to go on a date with him.

Around the same time an old flame who lives abroad wants to see me cause he is in the country, there still is a lot of sexual tension between us... But I managed to blow him of as well :brickwall:

I seem to remember these things being a LOT easier when I was in my twenties, almost forty now.

Why do I feel so blocked? Why don 't I just enjoy all of the attention? In stead I feel utterly miserable and angry at myself for being such a douche.

I asked yi

What do I need to know about my lovelife? Het 2.1.4 to 51

I am feeling to much right now to interpret the reading myself. I will get back with my own two cents, but in the mean time all your insights are much appreciated, as always.