Greetings! First time posting on this site, so thanks in advance to anyone who is able to give me some insights..A bit of a background on my relationship, we've been together for more than 8 year and our connection has always been extraordinary, we love each other deeply, but are both complicated human beings coming from dysfunctional familes. 4 years ago he broke up with me while going through some bad times, as he felt I deserve more than him being a mess all the time. Stayed apart for couple of months but eventually found our way back together, and stayed together ever since, even getting engaged a year after. That's when it got hard, as my first feaction to a proposal was telling him I have to think about it, even though I said yes afterwards. The reason for thinking before saying yes was - we were never thinking about getting married, both agreeing from the start that we don't believe in the necessity of marriage to confirm our love for each other. I was in shock when he proposed, and he read that as me not loving and wanting him enough.Then, year later, having moved to a new city and both starting new jobs, things got hard again as he started to let his frustrations take the best of him, waking up angry and resentful almost everyday and me being sad because I felt like there was nothing I could do to make him feel better. Last spring, we both decided to break up and go our seperate ways. It was immensely hard for both of us, as we really do love each other but couldn't find a way to be patient and let go of some resentment that built up with time. Then, in July last year, we started seeing each other again as we just couldn't stay away and kept coming back. Fast forward to last weekend, after going out and having a great time, he dropped me home and said that's it, it's over for good. It seems he still feels as if I don't want life and kids with him, even though I really do, but no matter how many times I say it, he still resents me for thinking before sayin yes all those years ago. He feels we've lost the opportunity we had, that it's too late now, being quite obsessed with what people around as think. I, on the other hand know we're each others 'forever person' and am not ready to give up, even though I did make mistakes, none were something unforgivable, or at least I believe so.So this morning I asked IChing 'What do I need to know about our relationship at the moment?', and got the reading '24.1.2.3 > 46'.It might be my wishful thinking, but I feel like there is hope if we just communicate and get it all out in the open and learn from our past and grow together as a team while building our thrust again.I would really appreciate your thoughts as I am not so experienced wih interpreting IChing readings, or I'm missing some greater message because I read what I wanto to read, if you know what I mean.Sorry for the long post, I just wanted to give you guys some background. Also, english is not my first language so sorry for any misspelling.Thank you!!
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