Hi everyone,
I've actually been secretly together with my superior for close to 10 months. This is a very wrong relationship because he's a married man for 10 years but I couldn't help but sink into it. Throughout these 10 months there has been a lot of ups and downs and we had gone through many things together. I'd to face a lot of things internally myself too because of being a secret. The happy times were really happy and the sad times were really sad.
I had tried to give up once few months ago and looked for other options to bring myself out of this relationship, but it failed in the end because what he did for me and how well he treated me soften my heart. He usually would want to keep things between him and his wife from me, but he did mention his love to her was only habit and there was a lot of problems between them, his wife was suspicious of him too which caused a lot of quarrels between them, their cultural difference was a problem also because his wife is a foreigner.
During the period I wanted to give up, he told me that he told his wife to find her own happiness if she feel they can't stay together forever, and his wife said ok. At the point of time I felt he told me all these is because he wanted me to say, but after observing, I think it's true because there was no phone calls from her anymore when we are together. They aren't sleeping together in the same room also.
I'm now in a struggle because I don't know what to expect from this relationship, he used to say he does not want to give me false hope but then he gave me hope after that. He told me it's a very big step for him and asked me to give him time because he wants to be with me from the bottom of his heart, but he can't do anything much because he doesn't want to be heartless to his wife. He can't give me a definite answer for a future but at the same time, he doesn't allow me to find my happiness also.
I feel so stuck in this situation, I really love him and I can feel he really love me too, but I just feel very insecure, constantly worrying and thinking. I'm also scared that he will lie to me as well regarding the situation between him and his wife, especially after he gave me some hope for the future.
I asking I-ching:
What is going on between him and his wife? 58.1 > 47
What should I do? I received 14.3.6 > 54
Really appreciate if anyone can give me insight to this, thanks everyone.
I've actually been secretly together with my superior for close to 10 months. This is a very wrong relationship because he's a married man for 10 years but I couldn't help but sink into it. Throughout these 10 months there has been a lot of ups and downs and we had gone through many things together. I'd to face a lot of things internally myself too because of being a secret. The happy times were really happy and the sad times were really sad.
I had tried to give up once few months ago and looked for other options to bring myself out of this relationship, but it failed in the end because what he did for me and how well he treated me soften my heart. He usually would want to keep things between him and his wife from me, but he did mention his love to her was only habit and there was a lot of problems between them, his wife was suspicious of him too which caused a lot of quarrels between them, their cultural difference was a problem also because his wife is a foreigner.
During the period I wanted to give up, he told me that he told his wife to find her own happiness if she feel they can't stay together forever, and his wife said ok. At the point of time I felt he told me all these is because he wanted me to say, but after observing, I think it's true because there was no phone calls from her anymore when we are together. They aren't sleeping together in the same room also.
I'm now in a struggle because I don't know what to expect from this relationship, he used to say he does not want to give me false hope but then he gave me hope after that. He told me it's a very big step for him and asked me to give him time because he wants to be with me from the bottom of his heart, but he can't do anything much because he doesn't want to be heartless to his wife. He can't give me a definite answer for a future but at the same time, he doesn't allow me to find my happiness also.
I feel so stuck in this situation, I really love him and I can feel he really love me too, but I just feel very insecure, constantly worrying and thinking. I'm also scared that he will lie to me as well regarding the situation between him and his wife, especially after he gave me some hope for the future.
I asking I-ching:
What is going on between him and his wife? 58.1 > 47
What should I do? I received 14.3.6 > 54
Really appreciate if anyone can give me insight to this, thanks everyone.