hi,
i've been a lurker on this site for a long time and have always appreciated the wisdom of this community. now i feel compelled to ask for an interpretation because i am not sure what to make of it.
i've been in a state of limbo or suspension for quite a few years now and today asked the I Ching: what is going on with me? i got 54 unchanging.
does this mean that i am where i should be? does it mean i should not take any decisive action in my life as that would lead to evil? or does it mean that i have somehow given my power away and that is why i am feeling adrift in my life?
i had done other explorations (I Ching and other spiritual inquiries) and what i have understood is that this is a time of hibernation for me, to meditate and get my internal affairs in order. i confess i haven't done this, so could 54 unchanging be telling me that until i do, things will continue as they are?
a bit of background that may be relevant:
i am in a long-term relationship, which my partner has kept secret from his parents. that means i am effectively a ghost in the most important aspect of his life (we both have strong family values). i also moved back to my family's town 3 years ago after an absence of 11 years, but in doing so, left a community in which i was very involved and had a lot of friends (although to be fair, i had been pulling back from that community for a few years before i left).
i feel insecure but at the same time, i also feel that there is nothing else i *could* or *should* be doing right now. however, i feel pressured by my family, boyfriend and society in general to *make* something of myself (i.e. get a well paying job and join mainstream society). but in my gut, i feel that is exactly the wrong thing to do. but the things i want to do seem to be out of my reach.
thanks for any feedback!
i've been a lurker on this site for a long time and have always appreciated the wisdom of this community. now i feel compelled to ask for an interpretation because i am not sure what to make of it.
i've been in a state of limbo or suspension for quite a few years now and today asked the I Ching: what is going on with me? i got 54 unchanging.
does this mean that i am where i should be? does it mean i should not take any decisive action in my life as that would lead to evil? or does it mean that i have somehow given my power away and that is why i am feeling adrift in my life?
i had done other explorations (I Ching and other spiritual inquiries) and what i have understood is that this is a time of hibernation for me, to meditate and get my internal affairs in order. i confess i haven't done this, so could 54 unchanging be telling me that until i do, things will continue as they are?
a bit of background that may be relevant:
i am in a long-term relationship, which my partner has kept secret from his parents. that means i am effectively a ghost in the most important aspect of his life (we both have strong family values). i also moved back to my family's town 3 years ago after an absence of 11 years, but in doing so, left a community in which i was very involved and had a lot of friends (although to be fair, i had been pulling back from that community for a few years before i left).
i feel insecure but at the same time, i also feel that there is nothing else i *could* or *should* be doing right now. however, i feel pressured by my family, boyfriend and society in general to *make* something of myself (i.e. get a well paying job and join mainstream society). but in my gut, i feel that is exactly the wrong thing to do. but the things i want to do seem to be out of my reach.
thanks for any feedback!