I would appreciate any insights about this reading. My life situation is quite difficult. I left my home country at 15 for education in the US. In my early 20s now, running out of my working permit in a couple of months. As per reading, I am constrained by many conditions; I can only stay in the US to work at a particular company that will sponsor my student visa and later working visa. I live with/depend on someone who doesn't treat me well but offered this opportunity. So I will have to be in this living situation until the company starts operating. To work, i will have to study full time in the evening for a masters degree I don't really want or need, at least for a year. Then, if lucky, I can get a working visa. I have a lot of somatic pains that prevent me from functioning well over half the time. The job itself is promising in an industry I am passionate about. However, having more schools sounds stressful and does not allow to pursue artistic hobbies that I am missing out in the current frenzy of my immigrant life. To go back to my home country is the last exit strategy - there I have a family with strained relationships, not so great career perspectives and political climate. My good friends back there urge me to stay despite all my pains and struggles. Also, it is likely it would be hard to return here if I leave the country now. So, I don't really have a home and not a 100% opportunity to start making one anywhere. Neither option, to stay and hope for better in the US, or come back home do not make me really happy. And in the last year I especially re-explored the importance of happiness and inner harmony in my life. I realized that I was guided by false assumptions and motivations when leaving home country in pursuit something better aka american dream. It never felt good, I did not study things I really wanted and did not study something useful enough either, like CS or stem fields, etc etc. I went through a lot of traumatic experiences, acquired ptsd, anxiety, depression and am working through them while trying to make it in life somehow. Soo, i realized at some point that I never prioritized happiness, that there are people who live calm and happy lives, that happiness is a choice. So, perhaps, I should just focus on that, allow myself to be happy? So I asked, "How to start living happily from here (where I am now)?" and got 60uc So, does it mean that there are limitations to happiness and I literally can't choose it? Or does it mean that I choose my limitations? Or that I should prioritize things/discipline myself but also allow room for joy (something I attempted recently but seems hardly achievable before I have a stable income and a routine)...Thanks in advance
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