I am moving towards my second year of study for a Diploma in Psychotherapy. I am at the point where I need to identify a couple of people so that I can complete two cases studies. This involves 46 sessions and writing reports. Then for September I need to find a placement which, like finding the case studies, is proving challenging.I feel at home spiritually with the non-dualists and this challenges the self concepts that are worked with in traditional forms of psychotherapy. I feel I have some aptitude for counselling having struggled so much myself to find a workable way to live. But it seems there are several obstacles to my feeling I want to see this course through to the end and qualify. One is what I experience as a conflict in approach because of different understandings of basically what human beings really are; the second is that I feel it does not help my own direction of growth as I find I have to revert back or work with the conceptual self; the third is in some ways, the (mainly) person-centred approach to 'helping' others sometimes feels like it is a largely unconscious way of avoiding asserting my own life/energy. The third is that for some reason, this latter conflict/problem also seems to undermine my confidence in myself. This is a long introduction. Sorry. But it is hard to see which way to go with this. I asked the I-Ching 'What's going on here which seems to engender lack of confidence & obstruction'?I-Ching's response was 56.4.6.15.This seems to be saying that I am not at ease (true), but that I must not act too hastily in giving up my course.I would be grateful for others' interpretations, especially anyone who understands the dilemma of non-dual 'self' understanding as it conflicts with the 'person' centred approach in counselling...?Btw, I don't have to earn a living as I am now retired, and this is a second career in my life in fact. But I always felt I had something of an aptitude for this work and never explored it before. And I am getting on a bit.
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