Today I was confronted with how disorganized my home and my office at work is. Keeping things in order has never been something I'm good at - as I spend more time in head thinking. It inevitably happens that all the mess catches up to me and overwhelms me. Forgetting bills at home. Not being able to find a document in all the messy files at the office.
So asked, "Where do I BEGIN?"
29uc. I'm not sure I fully understand this hexagram. "The Symbol of Sinking"
One phrasing of it says: "Dangers and challenges are indicated in this unwelcome hexagram. Faith and connection to others are your lifelines during this doubly dangerous time. Confront all dangers headfirst. Summon your strength and rise to the call. This is a time to take charge. Don't run away from yourself or your problems. To give up at this time could prove disastrous."
My disorganization issues that manifest in my life create double pitfalls. First there are the emotional well-being pitfalls. And then there is my external affairs and well-being. I can't seem to help consistently ending up in problematic situations as consequence of the disorganization. And I know that I need help from others. But if I ask for help, more often than not I am advised about codependency and the other prefers to not "enable" me. That suggestion, the idea that if someone were to help me stay organized, would be "enabling" me gives rise to some very difficult feelings.
On the one hand, if I buy into this line of thinking and accept that this must be true: then I must accept the idea that whatever they are "enabling" is a bad thing. The assumption is that I am dealing with something akin to atrophied muscles that simply are not used. So I must get up and exercise. I can accept that notion. And so from the time I was a child I have tried to keep a mindset to respond to the lack of support I encounter when I need help with a positive "You can do it, just keep trying" attitude.
That's not easy to do, when over and over you are repeatedly facing the same thing, and find yourself in your 40's STILL grappling with the same problem. One would think that by now, I would have developed the habits and self-disciplines of keeping my things in order. I question myself. Have I really NOT been trying? What's the point of "trying?" That's a very dangerous chasm to go down into. Plus, when I think about the organization required at work, at the office - when a business needs this kind of help, they seek it out and enlist someone who is good at being organized. The business is never accused of being codependent and "enabled" to continue its "bad" ways.
So I turn to examine my ways. What bad ways are being enabled if someone helps me? My goals that I am working on - do they serve merely my own interests, or a greater good? Do I squander my time and fritter it away doing "bad" thinks like drinking and drugs? That answer is NO, I absolutely don't. If someone is helping me, are they enabling me to continue an addiction to activities that are harmful to myself or others? No. So why is it that others can ask for help and receive it along with applause and honors - while I am held to the standards and treatments that are given to drug addicts and alcoholics - when I AM NOT ONE OF THESE? I'm aware and have been aware of the emotional issues I struggle with as a result of not just the disorganization - but the effects of it on my relationships. I might keep my laundry organized for about a month, but then I get busy at work, doing a bunch of other projects when I get home, and before I know it - the laundry is all piled up and I have nothing to wear. All my time and planning went into OTHER THINGS. It's like those very talented musicians who can play drums, a harmonica, a guitar and sing all at the same time. I can't do it. But unlike the example of the musicians that can do those extraordinary things, these are the unextraordinary things of life. My talents and gifts are in area of the musician's, not the daily norms that others take for granted everyone can and should be able to do. :duh:
This hexagram obviously applies to this kind of situation. So I offer my reading for others.
I asked "Where do I BEGIN?" And this is the place the Oracle says I must start. But there is no motion, no changing lines!
Any insights from others here would be very welcome. Thanks!
So asked, "Where do I BEGIN?"
29uc. I'm not sure I fully understand this hexagram. "The Symbol of Sinking"
One phrasing of it says: "Dangers and challenges are indicated in this unwelcome hexagram. Faith and connection to others are your lifelines during this doubly dangerous time. Confront all dangers headfirst. Summon your strength and rise to the call. This is a time to take charge. Don't run away from yourself or your problems. To give up at this time could prove disastrous."
My disorganization issues that manifest in my life create double pitfalls. First there are the emotional well-being pitfalls. And then there is my external affairs and well-being. I can't seem to help consistently ending up in problematic situations as consequence of the disorganization. And I know that I need help from others. But if I ask for help, more often than not I am advised about codependency and the other prefers to not "enable" me. That suggestion, the idea that if someone were to help me stay organized, would be "enabling" me gives rise to some very difficult feelings.
On the one hand, if I buy into this line of thinking and accept that this must be true: then I must accept the idea that whatever they are "enabling" is a bad thing. The assumption is that I am dealing with something akin to atrophied muscles that simply are not used. So I must get up and exercise. I can accept that notion. And so from the time I was a child I have tried to keep a mindset to respond to the lack of support I encounter when I need help with a positive "You can do it, just keep trying" attitude.
That's not easy to do, when over and over you are repeatedly facing the same thing, and find yourself in your 40's STILL grappling with the same problem. One would think that by now, I would have developed the habits and self-disciplines of keeping my things in order. I question myself. Have I really NOT been trying? What's the point of "trying?" That's a very dangerous chasm to go down into. Plus, when I think about the organization required at work, at the office - when a business needs this kind of help, they seek it out and enlist someone who is good at being organized. The business is never accused of being codependent and "enabled" to continue its "bad" ways.
So I turn to examine my ways. What bad ways are being enabled if someone helps me? My goals that I am working on - do they serve merely my own interests, or a greater good? Do I squander my time and fritter it away doing "bad" thinks like drinking and drugs? That answer is NO, I absolutely don't. If someone is helping me, are they enabling me to continue an addiction to activities that are harmful to myself or others? No. So why is it that others can ask for help and receive it along with applause and honors - while I am held to the standards and treatments that are given to drug addicts and alcoholics - when I AM NOT ONE OF THESE? I'm aware and have been aware of the emotional issues I struggle with as a result of not just the disorganization - but the effects of it on my relationships. I might keep my laundry organized for about a month, but then I get busy at work, doing a bunch of other projects when I get home, and before I know it - the laundry is all piled up and I have nothing to wear. All my time and planning went into OTHER THINGS. It's like those very talented musicians who can play drums, a harmonica, a guitar and sing all at the same time. I can't do it. But unlike the example of the musicians that can do those extraordinary things, these are the unextraordinary things of life. My talents and gifts are in area of the musician's, not the daily norms that others take for granted everyone can and should be able to do. :duh:
This hexagram obviously applies to this kind of situation. So I offer my reading for others.
I asked "Where do I BEGIN?" And this is the place the Oracle says I must start. But there is no motion, no changing lines!
Any insights from others here would be very welcome. Thanks!