Hi all, this is the most emotional pain I've ever felt, it feels like drowning and I'm not moving, or eating, or sleeping. I've been feeling my partner of 4 years growing distant for the past month when previously we were extremely close. We shared everything, she told me she wanted us to become a family, and then all of a sudden she pulled back. It's clear that she's interested in somebody else, but she won't talk to me about it. I went away to London for 10 days, I'm returning on Monday, and I could feel before I left that this would be disastrous for me to leave. We were talking on the phone at first and everything was fine, and then suddenly she stopped texting me, she stopped calling, and now when I get in touch with her it seems like her mind is elsewhere. I asked the I ching whether or not what I was feeling was correct and I got 20.3.4>33, which indicates to me that I am correct.
I asked what was happening with her and I got 54.2>51.
I asked what was coming up in my love life and I got 54 unchanging.
I finally got her to talk to me today and when I called, one of our close friends was with her and we all chatted as friends which gave me some hope, but I also felt like the friend was just there to help my GF not have to talk to me about the issue. So I told my GF before we hung up that she could call me again later if she felt like it and she was like "yea maybe" which I could tell was a "no." I asked which of my perspectives was correctly founded and I got 22.4.5>13, which tells me that the friendly conversation we had was indeed a facade, and 38.1>64 which tells me that she doesn't want to talk to me. I asked why our friends are helping her deceive me and I got 33.1.2.4>9. I've gotten a bunch of throws involving 23 and 33 that really clearly seem to be saying "yes it's over, you need to simply move on, let these people out of your life, stop whining about it." But these are my closest friends, and my partner who I was previously so close with. I asked one last time if there is any other way to look at it and I got 43.4.5 > 11 which is saying "you're resisting the only path you can take." Which says stop trying to change the situation with sheer force of will.
It really feels like the I ching isn't giving me any positive outlook here, none of this is going to end well, I basically have to try to restart my life with entirely new people (or the few friends who aren't involved in this situation). I know this is a lot of hexes and a lot of questions, I'm normally very composed and resilient but this has really rocked me and I'm just looking for any, ANY glimmer of hope other than just "at least you get these shitty people out of your life" because that means that I wasted many years of my energy and emotional investment in people who ultimately did not care about me. I haven't slept in three days. Somebody please help me.
I asked what was happening with her and I got 54.2>51.
I asked what was coming up in my love life and I got 54 unchanging.
I finally got her to talk to me today and when I called, one of our close friends was with her and we all chatted as friends which gave me some hope, but I also felt like the friend was just there to help my GF not have to talk to me about the issue. So I told my GF before we hung up that she could call me again later if she felt like it and she was like "yea maybe" which I could tell was a "no." I asked which of my perspectives was correctly founded and I got 22.4.5>13, which tells me that the friendly conversation we had was indeed a facade, and 38.1>64 which tells me that she doesn't want to talk to me. I asked why our friends are helping her deceive me and I got 33.1.2.4>9. I've gotten a bunch of throws involving 23 and 33 that really clearly seem to be saying "yes it's over, you need to simply move on, let these people out of your life, stop whining about it." But these are my closest friends, and my partner who I was previously so close with. I asked one last time if there is any other way to look at it and I got 43.4.5 > 11 which is saying "you're resisting the only path you can take." Which says stop trying to change the situation with sheer force of will.
It really feels like the I ching isn't giving me any positive outlook here, none of this is going to end well, I basically have to try to restart my life with entirely new people (or the few friends who aren't involved in this situation). I know this is a lot of hexes and a lot of questions, I'm normally very composed and resilient but this has really rocked me and I'm just looking for any, ANY glimmer of hope other than just "at least you get these shitty people out of your life" because that means that I wasted many years of my energy and emotional investment in people who ultimately did not care about me. I haven't slept in three days. Somebody please help me.