Hello everyone,
So today was the day I was going to quit smoking. Until I woke up and promptly realised that all I wanted was a cigarette. I had four in 2h (which includes half an hour I wasted on grooming); the feeling is as if I have to make up for all the fags I had promised myself not to smoke.
I started looking for a hypnotherapist on Internet, because hey - haven't tried that yet, then thought I'd first ask Yi for an insight and advice regarding this whole situation:
52, unchanging.
Keep still. Keep still??? Doesn't Yi realise the urgency of my situation, surely I have to do something!
Background: I did stop smoking for about seven years, never even missed it, then picked it up again almost exactly two years ago. Wasn't able to stop since. I am in my 16th year of recovery from another addiction, so have an intimate knowledge of all the tricks of the addiction trade. I did my work, still do, I believe the change (transformation) is ongoing and necessary... And yet, it's as if part of me doesn't even care. I feel plain crazy. Right now, for example, I'm plotting a day trip to Belgium to get cheap fags AS WELL as the next quit-day.
Yi has informed me I was pushing a river on the last couple of occasions I came a-running about this issue. Then today, hexagram 52. Am I to accept smoking as part of the process and just go with it, or am I to still/arrest/put it down without any further dramatic discussions?
Your own take on this would be mucho appreciated.
Thank you,
Olga
So today was the day I was going to quit smoking. Until I woke up and promptly realised that all I wanted was a cigarette. I had four in 2h (which includes half an hour I wasted on grooming); the feeling is as if I have to make up for all the fags I had promised myself not to smoke.
I started looking for a hypnotherapist on Internet, because hey - haven't tried that yet, then thought I'd first ask Yi for an insight and advice regarding this whole situation:
52, unchanging.
Keep still. Keep still??? Doesn't Yi realise the urgency of my situation, surely I have to do something!
Background: I did stop smoking for about seven years, never even missed it, then picked it up again almost exactly two years ago. Wasn't able to stop since. I am in my 16th year of recovery from another addiction, so have an intimate knowledge of all the tricks of the addiction trade. I did my work, still do, I believe the change (transformation) is ongoing and necessary... And yet, it's as if part of me doesn't even care. I feel plain crazy. Right now, for example, I'm plotting a day trip to Belgium to get cheap fags AS WELL as the next quit-day.
Yi has informed me I was pushing a river on the last couple of occasions I came a-running about this issue. Then today, hexagram 52. Am I to accept smoking as part of the process and just go with it, or am I to still/arrest/put it down without any further dramatic discussions?
Your own take on this would be mucho appreciated.
Thank you,
Olga