Hi good folks
A quick background.
I am single since October '16, after a long-term relationship with an addict. It took a lot of courage on my part to break of the relationship and for a long time I wasn't interested in other men at all. I needed time to heal and find my self again. It took me a while but lately I have started enjoying my social life again. I feel like I am blossoming after years of isolation and low self esteem. I had intense encounters with two different men in the time of a month. Despite enjoying all this sudden attention immensely these encounters triggered a longing for something more meaningful then what I experienced with these men.
I accept my single status and understand this is necessary for me right now. At the same time I feel a deep longing for a meaningful connection. In the mean time I don't want to deny myself the pleasure of enjoying my single life to the fullest. This change in my emotional life has happened quite forcefully and sudden. I am trying to get a deeper understanding of what is happening to me right now.
So I asked Yi
Hex 59.5 to 4: Please show me what influences are active in my lovelife at this time?
In a thread about this line on the forum I found a useful comment from Martin:
I think that in line 5 the self (the king) discovers that dispersion is what he or she really wants or that dispersing is the best thing to do in this situation.
It becomes his or her decision instead of something that more or less just happens to him or her.
Consequently the self assumes full responsibility for the dispersion, makes it his or her 'cause', and takes the lead in the process.
This is a change of attitude.
It could be me realizing my true desire for a deeper connection but at the same time accepting what is happening to me and taking responsibility for it. This is a change of attitude for me, especially when I think of my younger days when I was single. I felt much more uncertain about romantic interests. I feel like I am growing as a woman, still challenged but more accepting and less desperate then I used to be.
Still, other insights are very welcome, as always :D
A quick background.
I am single since October '16, after a long-term relationship with an addict. It took a lot of courage on my part to break of the relationship and for a long time I wasn't interested in other men at all. I needed time to heal and find my self again. It took me a while but lately I have started enjoying my social life again. I feel like I am blossoming after years of isolation and low self esteem. I had intense encounters with two different men in the time of a month. Despite enjoying all this sudden attention immensely these encounters triggered a longing for something more meaningful then what I experienced with these men.
I accept my single status and understand this is necessary for me right now. At the same time I feel a deep longing for a meaningful connection. In the mean time I don't want to deny myself the pleasure of enjoying my single life to the fullest. This change in my emotional life has happened quite forcefully and sudden. I am trying to get a deeper understanding of what is happening to me right now.
So I asked Yi
Hex 59.5 to 4: Please show me what influences are active in my lovelife at this time?
In a thread about this line on the forum I found a useful comment from Martin:
Quote:
I think that in line 5 the self (the king) discovers that dispersion is what he or she really wants or that dispersing is the best thing to do in this situation.
It becomes his or her decision instead of something that more or less just happens to him or her.
Consequently the self assumes full responsibility for the dispersion, makes it his or her 'cause', and takes the lead in the process.
This is a change of attitude.
Still, other insights are very welcome, as always :D