I find it hard to see myself or what others may value in me. Someone I admire, a religious teacher has so much more capacity, intelligence and talent than me. And despite me having a lot of constant, 'talking myself down' self talk in her presence, my sense is that she really values me. I threw the iching to see if I could get an understanding of what she sees in me. So that I could get a better understanding of my self, maybe see something if value that I can't see. There is a mystical component to our connection I think through the faith tradition we are in. I seem to be able to be vulnerable even weak around her but still feel appreciated and valued.
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