38>51

After many years of being in unstable situations many times over -

Please show me the way to find the stability I crave

Hex 38.2.6>51

I'm seeing 51 as the present and past shake ups I've had and 38 as me feeling Estranged by the one I thought and who said he would help support me....
Lines 2 and 6 seem to say I will get some help from a very unexpected source.